The Autobiography of JoreJj Z. Elprehzleinn
The End of Everyone I Once Knew and the
Beginning of Something New

In the destiny card system the 9 of spades is considered one of the most feared cards in the deck. When itshows up in a persons fortune it can often foretell a difficult ending accompanied with many of the feelings and circumstances that human beings tend to avoid. The other nines also portend similarly endings in their respective domains.

While this is not the place to discuss that card, which is wonderfully clarified elsewhere in books by the current master of the destiny card system I started this chapter of my autobiography with it because of all the treasures that life has to offer to me the most valuable and exquisite are my relationships.

Whether it is my personal lifetimes long relationship with Venus Rising Star the beautiful Goddess of all relationships, and money, and war, or whether with any of my unseen friends from the human world, or from other kingdoms Faerie, Angelic, Devic, Sirius, Crystal, and more. Or whether it is my relationships with animals, nature, things, the world itself, GODdess, the many aspects of my own Self and Soul and Spirit and Higher Self and my spiritual heritage in the various lifetimes I have supposedly lived in the modern world in the past millenium and before that in the Ancient Worlds of Atlantis and Lemuria. My relationship with all of me from there and all whom I once and still know from all times and places.

My stellar heritage in Sirius. My relationship to that me and those reflections and emanations of other beings in that then and now. And beyond the stars to my true home and yours I think so. And all of my relationships there.

And last but not least are the relationships that I have had in this lifetime with the people that we call each other human beings, more commonly we connect by name.

Why do I name no person as a friend? Why have so many passed into and out of my current existence human as the person that I have been in the short current lifetime I have begun in this body?

Because I do not so much fear the 9. The endings, the loss, the death of a loving relationship. Yes I fear it. Yes it has come with pain. But like a warrior that I once was, I understand death from many points of view. I have studied it and honored it as a samurai, I have mastered protecting against it at all odds as a gladiator that never lost. I have administered it and become an expert at it in other incarnations as a grand and respected and skilled commander of armies.

I have faced my own death in this lifetime on several occasions. I have relationships with beings unseen who have surpassed death and others that do not know death. I have put this human body and this me that is identified with this human body and this human lifetime into the burning bright forever light and I have activated something eternal in my body now.

And so I know that in this young beginning of my current lifetime I am conditioning and preparing myself emotionally for the crossing of my years in the eighties and nineties of my current body age. For the passage beyond into what is called the hundreds and then the thousands of years in the same body.

I choose this is my last lifetime. I choose to stay as long as I desire and I currently choose for that to be hundreds and even thousands of years. Blissfully. Gloriously. In love.

And so, knowing that I exist now in a world where almost every person that circulates into around and out of my current life is into a belief system that the body goes through various stages and then it terminates somewhere around and usually before 90 years of age.

Most human beings I know at this time and I believe it is so for even those many I do not know, as I read the collective unconscious like a book very clearly and it tells me this is so.

That most believe in this "human life span". I also know that most are not really so conscious of this at all or even think much of it other than the various programming about it brings up automatically for them.

This is perhaps not even choice for most.

For me, I make my own choices.

And so I know that many in my lifetime will leave in their known form and current existence seemingly very permanently in what is commonly said to be the experience of one of those very short 90 year or less life spans.

A blink of an eye.

Loving people, loving relationships more than any other treasure in this world and in all my existences I have chosen to invest my early years of existence in this body in this lifetime into experiencing letting people come in, loving each other intensely and letting them go completely and forever.

My deeper desire is to be with all my loved ones eternally. This is about handling human existence in this same body.

I am learning to transcend to walk through to live through with joy the transition of death which is any ending of any relationship even those who do not leave the body just leave my life.

My truth is that I love to build and keep loving relationships and I would keep them all if we could grow in love together. In my wisdom I know there are only a select few that we can with all that is in this world find our way to staying together for a long long long time in our current forms, sharing the many experiences of what comes and goes.

And it is for those loves of my life that I train myself early in this lifetime now to accept and allow and to cultivate the skill of ending relationships and releasing them rather than holding them into the far far future as is my hearts desire.

And so this is why so far I have had such rich and wonderful and loving relationships with people who describe their time with me in superlative terms in comparison to their time with all other people in their live. And why nevertheless they are all gone from my ordinary day to day life.

This is why I have left very few relationships and do so very carefully and considerately, because I prefer to keep them. And yet above my desire to have enduring flourishing interesting mutally rewarding relationships with many people is my desire to have partnership with only a very few, my lover(s).

I choose that all my relationships are loving relationships and this makes things very different in all relationships. With the seen and unseen world.

To love most deeply and richly, the greatest thing there is to do from which all other riches come in this world, we must face the fear of losing that love we have for each other. Like artisans of loving. With great skill. For to do so means we can live forever and endure forever if we want to, we can, you and me in our relationship.

We can do that if we both choose, but we must face the fear of loss the more we love the more we endure the deeper we flower and flourish our success in a loving relationship of any kind it is that it becomes richer and more valuable the more we love and the fear of losing it increases.

So this is why I have chosen to gather and focus my skills on learning and appreciating the skill of handling the feelings and circumstances of the ending of loving relationships. In order to stay in the longer and to love in them more fully.

And the success I have attained at doing this so far is perhaps one of the reasons why so far already I and those I have relationships with taste such superlative experiences even at this stage in my current human existence that is called my past which is covered by this account, this autobiography of me.